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Clarissa @ 2008-10-02 00:27

   不知道从哪天开始,心情大好,迷雾渐消,豁然开朗,觉得仿佛又回到目标明确,信心满满的高中时代了!当然要感谢某师兄。。。

    我开始觉得一些看似飘渺的东西其实是有章可循的。一些看似很高深的技巧其实是水到渠成。在纷繁复杂的事物中,就容易随波逐流迷失自我,或者舍本逐末丧失主动。还好,我想我正在学着渐渐看清,什么是最重要的,而什么只是看上去很美。

    首先,我觉得方向很重要,但难道没有找清楚方向之前就一定会迷茫吗?其实不一定,因为无论什么方向,有些东西是共有的,咱们得在这些方面好好加把劲。再小的目标,只要足够重要,也值得把心思好好地放在上面。

    其次,要独立,要有魄力。其实没有多少人会无缘无故地帮助你,人们总是帮助他们觉得值得帮助的人,(即他们的帮助真的可以起到作用)。所以,人永远是靠自己活着。路上的酸甜苦辣最终要靠自己去品尝。

    还有,要看的宽一点,看得远一点。当你在为某件事某些人烦恼的时候,何不勇敢地跳出来,然后你会发现——哎呀,那算什么呀。。。有了这样的心态,又会少去很多烦忧,抛开很多次要的东西,从而让真正重要的东西变得更加明确。

    还有,要想得开。这个世界上不公平不厚道的事情多了,所谓失之东隅收之桑榆,如果始终纠缠某件事情到底是怎么了,那又无异于白白浪费了我宝贵的时间。这些事情总结一下,实在想不通我就不想了,因为我迟早会明白的嘛,何必这么早就看清楚。

    最后,我真的真的要感谢帮助我的人。也许只是一次聊天,一通电话,一句鼓励,一个微笑,一声问候,我会感觉到自己其实不孤单,让我有勇气在新的天地去探索,去体会;感谢以自己的经历给我以宝贵启示的人,我从你们身上看到了一种不一样的过法;感谢大家的关心,这是我的力量的有力补充。

    最最重要的,还是静下心来,好好计划一下,从小事做起,一步一个脚印。“志存高远,脚踏实地”,咱们高三的班训,现在仍然受用。我知道,我现在的很多想法难免浅薄,不过,探索是一种姿态。我觉得无所谓什么落差不落差,过去,现在,将来,我只是要找到一条路,然后认真地走下去。

    加油吧!  



 
Clarissa @ 2008-09-16 22:57

    刚刚步入大学就觉得原来自己以前太单纯。不过,无论什么样的环境我都会好好适应,迎接挑战,汲取营养,开创未来。
    学校很大,带人游览校园时我还得用地图,的确有很多刻苦的学生,也有很多很精明的学生,真的是人才济济。每个院系的迎新会都在强调找准位置。而在我看来最重要的还是要坚定目标,不跟风,也不怕难。
    日子才刚刚开始。而奋斗是青春的意义。


 
Clarissa @ 2008-09-03 23:23

    浑浑噩噩过完假期,经历了很多,最后还是要将好的不好的过滤一遍,成为以后生活的营养。

友谊
     回想高三一年有苦有乐的日子,觉得朋友是身边最坚强的力量。柳絮,豆豆,当然在最紧张的时期,蚯蚓和舌花和我,互相鼓励,分享学习心得,一起背书,一起制定时间表,这样按部就班地度过了最困难的时间。还有和蚯蚓在B班的谈心,还有对时局的思考。寝室里面,亚芸,蛋,微笑,吃东西,看电视。现在想来都是很快乐的。
    朋友是永远的财富,以后还要联系。

经验
    好的东西要继续发扬。
1.要做吃苦的准备。准备承受压力,也有胆量放下压力。
2.合理计划时间,有规律地生活。
3.早做打算,做长远和近期计划,制定时间表,严格按计划执行。
4.劳逸结合,全面发展。多创造机会,增加筹码。
5.充分信任朋友,分享信息,创造多赢局面
6.不到最后时刻不放弃努力,争取最后转机。

教训
    苦涩经历要避免重演。
1.任何时候不可掉以轻心,不到最后结果不可放松。
2.不可盲目自信,充分估计困难。
3.遇事要冷静,不可自乱手脚。
4.要坚强,在困难境地要比别人多一分耐力。
5.在重要关头,不能完全相信别人,要留后路。社会是复杂的

感谢
    朋友们,老师们,亲人们。我会加油的。

日子还在继续。我仍然在努力。




 
Clarissa @ 2008-08-20 21:03

奥运是一出大戏啊。。。程菲,埃蒙斯,刘翔,,同样值得尊敬。
这个就是命运的玩笑。不过真正的强者用不屈的灵魂回答命运的捉弄,完成生命的涅槃。
(最近看奥运没有更新,这个blog以后也许就废弛了。。。不久就要开学了。。



 
Clarissa @ 2008-08-07 13:58

北大,我为你付的代价太大。公共管理,为人民服务,转一圈还是到我曾经热衷的政治了。
无论如何,我终于到北大了。又是一片天地了呀。
看招生网上说这个系氛围挺好的,我还挺期待的。
从此同学们真的要天各一方了,不过这样全国旅游都有人接应了,^_^



 
Clarissa @ 2008-08-03 21:34

2日晚上11点到现场。在车上睡了一会儿。
3号一早起来开始等。于9点多终于等来了火炬!
万众欢腾,心潮澎湃。红旗飞舞,锣鼓震天。
 



 
Clarissa @ 2008-07-28 18:01

     这是一次胜利的旅行,团结的旅行,奋进的旅行,继往开来的旅行。
     黎奕豆一行9人在湘西的5天里,度过了愉快的旅行时光。我们不禁要感叹:不虚此行,不虚此行。

基本信息
      
一行9人:豆豆,柳絮,蚯蚓,祥子,冒儿,彦利,舌花,我,松哥(排名按下图顺序)。
      当地旅行全团16人:除我们9人,还有3个小家庭。

D1(7月22日)成都晴,张家界雨
     前一天昆明汽车爆炸,让我非常担心。(任何时候我都比别人更为担心安全问题)几乎是带着去冒险的心情,我独自搭乘了广安到成都的公交大巴。然后和彦利会合之后,到岷山饭店,同豆豆松哥一起搭机场大巴到了机场。9人到齐后,在肯德基等待良久,我们的航班于8点20分起飞飞往张家界。
   
    临行在机场的合影
     下飞机住进一家环境极差的旅馆。被子几乎是湿的,窗子好像关不紧,电视信号也很差。有点担心,于是豆豆和蚯蚓搬过来和我和柳絮一起挤。一直耍到到12点钟,大家才逐渐睡去。

D2 大雨
     在四川的时候上网查天气就知道张家界这几天会下雨,但是下的雨也太大了。以至于云雨遮盖了一切,当我们满身打湿,累得不行地爬到山顶,迎接我们的除了云雨和雾,什么景色也没有。

 第一天游览地的最高峰——摘星台
         下午游览金鞭溪,不用再爬山。大家非常轻松,路上有说有笑。在山崖下,密林间穿梭,开始觉得张家界其实很美。

金鞭溪里走走
        晚上观看了所谓的民族风情表演,节目还将就,就是主持人超级低俗。不过,大家都还觉得很好玩。

D3 大雨转多云转晴
       这是整个旅程的一个小高潮。
       按照原计划,我们应该游览张家界的核心景区——天子山。不过,由于下雨,山上可能什么也看不到,导游让我们换景点。到一个不知名的溶洞游览。思考良久,我们作出了非常正确的选择——按计划游览天子山。作为我个人,看过许多溶洞,其实也大同小异,没什么特别。
        由于我们占全团大多数,于是我们16团就开始游览十里画廊。风景比前面一天更加美丽了,沿着峡谷前行,雨雾缭绕的山峰更有一种神秘,妩媚的味道。

十里画廊的尽头暨天子山的脚下
       游览完十里画廊,许多人都不想再爬天子山。我们9人中也出现了意见的不统一。我和蚯蚓坚持要爬山去看一看,即使看不到什么景色,就当锻炼(8000多级台阶)。最后,除彦利和祥子以外的7人,开始冒雨攀登天子山。
       一路上,台阶很陡,爬得很累。豆豆直接拿了块白毛巾搭脖子上擦汗,极类店小二。我们爬爬停停,一路上见下山的人就问还有多久。爬到很高以后,可以明显看见空气中的小水滴在飘动,就像下小雨——哈哈,我们已经爬到云中间啦!
        然后遇见了此行最有趣的一件事——蚯蚓为了拿东西方便,将背包背在胸前,外面套上雨衣,看上去极像孕妇 。我们一路上都在取笑她的大肚子。

后来,走到一个岔路口,一个和尚坐在路边算命。蚯蚓走在前面,和尚于是向她喊道“女施主!让我给你看看!”蚯蚓没甩,继续走。我和舌花就开玩笑说“让他看看是男是女三!”这时,和尚冷不防又向蚯蚓喊道“女施主快回来,一定是个男孩儿!”——众人仆倒,爆笑,蚯蚓受惊,夺路而逃。和尚仍然像她喊道"别跑快了,小心!”——和尚一定也是第一次看到孕妇爬天子山而且还跑得这么快吧!
        路上风雨交加,到山顶我们以为还是什么也看不到。不过在观景台,雨停了,我们意外地看见了美丽地景色。云雾中时隐时现的山峰,比起一览无余,更加含蓄,优雅。我们于是更加为我们选择爬山的决定感到庆幸。

山顶留念
       
然后我们7人在贺龙公园合影,标志了本次的成功登顶。

       下午3点左右,我们乘坐缆车下山。天已经完全放晴。在缆车上俯瞰,尖山似刻,沟谷深邃,美不胜收。同时,我们胜利完成8000台阶的攀登,又有一种自豪和欣慰。
       晚上聚餐,吃烧烤,把旅馆的床弄得稀脏。打牌到12点。

D3 晴
      
我们一要离开张家界,天气就是蓝天白云的无比晴朗。。哎。。
       上午坐车向凤凰进发。5小时车程,一路上都在睡觉。
       下午游览苗寨(整个旅行中性价比最低的一个景点)。之后漂流,十分刺激!浑身都湿透啦。
       晚上到达凤凰,开始游夜市。在虹桥边上吃烧烤,喝了点啤酒。玩的非常HIGH。

然后逛了各式各样的小店。还差点买了条裙子,呵呵。又放河灯,在河边许愿。

大家逛到11点过,很多店都关门了,我们才回到宾馆,吃西瓜,看电视。2点多睡觉。

D5 晴
       上午游览凤凰古城,参观名人故居,泛舟沱江。

虹桥上留个影
       中午在江边的一个小酒吧去吃饭,没吃成就去吃了一碗粉。下午就乘车返回张家界。晚上10点的飞机回成都。结束了快乐的旅程。

最后来两张景色图片,以供参考!
天子山风景

凤凰古城



       感谢我的8个同伴,我们一起度过了快乐的4天多,给大家留下了美好的回忆。
       还是那句话,旅行的意义,不在于旅行本身,而是和你一起旅行的人。。。




 
Clarissa @ 2008-07-18 22:21

Recently,I read an article in PHONEX  WEEKLY.It is said that the government  had cancled some limits on the internet,for example,now we can search for the students movement in 89 on google.
I tried and suprisingly found a documentary on the event which I had kown long before__the TIANANMEN  SQUARE.To be candid,I am shocked,partially because of the large scale of the movement,and partially because of the negtive opinions on our government and political leaders.
I know this movement is a scar for the generation of our parents.When they were young and energetic,they contributed their youth to this remote dream,and thus even buried their future.I can see those young people were innocent.They had a pure dream to ban corruption and realise democracy.But apparently, some of them were too impulsive to think over it carefully,and some of them were not clear what was their goal.So the tragedy happened.

The students movements in china
Students are always believed to be very romantic.They studies in the school all day long;they  are sometimes idealists;they rarely kown the darkness of society and the difficulty in changing it;but they are brave. The famous students movement __5.4 movement was a historical point in china's history.At that time ,the government  also suppressed the students ,many were killed or wounded.But it had a  profound influence on the development of the civil revolution.
On the contrary,the 6.4 movement was nearly forgotten.I can think out 3 reasons.
1st,the government  forbid the public to talk about this event,which is too sensitive.They avoid concerning it.
2nd,those who took part in this event were firmly punished.They dare not  or are unwilling to talk about this.
3rd,as time passed by,China made great progress in economy.People focus more on their realistic interest,and can spare no  time to put an eye on politics.Especially the teenagers nowadays,they   hardly know this event,as is reported in a taiwaness newspaper.

The things should be remembered
First
,i think the passion of politics that was shown is very valuable,and this is just what we now lacked.Despite their method or the result,I believe a motive to change society is the source of improvement.
Second,those students were beginning to realise what is real democracy and freedom.It is big achievement after the cultural revolution(1966-1976).The new generation can doubt those believes that were accepted for many years,and they tried to change what was unfair or unreasonable.This was somehow incredible.
BUT,there are still more to be bitter lessons for young people today to learn.
FIRST,
with little social experience,students should not be too confident to  protest the government.It is unwise to sacrifice our youth and even life to this kind of reform.We should keep calm.I admit revolution requires blood,but  the useless sacrifice can make no difference.So at any time,we'd better  not  decide to  lay down our lives.
SECOND,we should be patient.As is known to all,the progress of democracy is tough.So when the economy  level is not high enough,or the awareness of the public is not that ripe,we had better wait.
AND FINALLY,we should always keep in mind that  the peace of society is the base of the country.It is always easy to call on some people to go on the streets to protest ,but what really counts is how to make them go home.If we can't make sure the whole event is under control,we'd better not risk our peace to chase for any political  goal.Because if society is in chaos,as it was in the cultural revolution and in the 1989 movement,it is the people of the nation,especially the bottom class that wiil suffer.So think twice before you leap.To break peace is quite easy,but to return to peace is rather hard.

What's more
Maybe the movie is not that objective,but I am deeply inspired by it.
Then I found some videos about those students leaders.They were very brave at that time,for which I quite admire their courage and passion.But now Wuerkaixi,ChiLing and WangDan are all in the states.Wuerkaixi became a TV reporter in a Taiwaness programme,and he's getting fat.WangDan were put to prison for 4 years and now in USA.Chai is now CEO of a software company in the USA.
The 64 movement are past terms.It was a memory of a generation.But things has changed .
I am not intelligent enough to comment on it .What is certain is that I am really moved.
I can't help asking myself:if I were in that situation,would I take part in it?
Maybe.

p.s  Manifesto of hunger strike
Although our shoulders are still weak
Although death for us is still seemingly too harsh to bear
We have to part with life
We have no choice when history demands us to do so
Romantic fantasy of suffering can only be dispelled by suffering in reality
It is with spirit of death that we fight for life
It is with the desperation of saving this dispirited and selfish nation
We are offering ourselves
If we are not willing to die
Who will?

尽管我们的肩膀还很柔嫩
尽管死亡对我们来说还显得过于沉重.
但是,
我们去了,
我们却不得不去.
历史这样要求我们!
唯有真实的苦难才能驱除罗曼蒂克的幻想苦难.
唯有克服苦难的壮烈的悲剧,才能帮助我们承受残酷的命运.
唯有抱着"我不入地狱,谁入地狱"的精神,才能挽救一个萎靡而自私的民族.

p.s 2 


BLOOD IS ON THE SQUARE
BY Phillip Morgan

THIS IS WHAT I  CAN THINK OUT AFTER WATCHING...

We have to think of if independently.
Don't totally believe the authority,nor this movie.
Just use our brains.

AND I MUST SAY:
I AM A WOULD-BE CPC MEMBER!
I FIRMLY SUPPORT OUR PARTY AND OUR GOVERNMENT!
 




 
Clarissa @ 2008-07-18 11:10

PKU has a brilliant history,which is closely cennected with China's history.It was the place of origin of democracy and freedom in china.
BUT It is always believed that students in pku are more ostentatious,but the real leaders of the coutry are always from tshu,such as President Hu,the would -be president XI,and the minister of the congress WU.
I have read an article about the TRIANLE CORNER in pku.It has been a symbol of the passion of politics in pku.In many cases,it was a place where people asserted their political opnions and participated in political activities.But last year ,it was torn down because of the construction of pku.On this news,many graduates from pku expressed their regret and complaint.They said it was a disappearance of the spirit of pku.
So what is the spirit of pku.It is hard to say.I used to believe it was a self-recogonition as an elite of the coutry and the very person to bear the responsibility of the coutry.
But now I am not sure what it is,because with the tide of  china's trade,something which used to be valued now is fading gradually.And now I am an outsider,so I can't draw a conclusion.I can just wait to explore the real spirit of pku.




 
Clarissa @ 2008-07-09 21:37

小学同学会(7月6日)
        在LILIAN同学的组织下,7个小学同学召开了一次别开生面的同学会。
        是日天朗气清,惠风和畅。我们几个欢聚在城郊的一个火锅店里。席间,觥筹交错,欢声笑语。大家都长大了,女的变漂亮了(包括我哈^_^),男的变帅了。。以前还吵吵闹闹的同学,现在可以很坦然地谈笑了。正如我很久以前设想过的那样,很多年以后,我们都可以把过往的点点滴滴,好的坏的,当作久远的故事,付之笑谈了。
        突然记得小学的时候我也是班长的。那个时候的我和现在一样,很上进,也有点贪玩,几分乐观,几分烦恼。不过那个时候还有些莫名其妙的多愁善感,有些担忧,有些迷茫。那个时候也很八卦,很有点不知好歹。爱看悲剧,喜欢冯小宁的战争片,也为流星花园而疯狂。听谢霆锋的歌,看叫少年文艺的杂志,写点小散文。。。。。。小时候的形象有点模糊了,不过这样说来,那个小女孩还真有点“少年不识愁滋味,为赋新词强说愁”的味道。
        不过总的来说,应该还是个讨人喜欢的小女孩哈^_^

地震惊魂 (5月12日)
        5月12日14点28分。寝室3楼。熟睡中。
        突然感觉床被剧烈得拉动。由于寝室里面窗帘拉得很紧,里面很昏暗。在昏沉中感受到强烈的摇晃,觉得很有几分灾难片的味道。四个人同时惊醒,亚芸问“啥子哦!”蛋回答“地震!”我已经从床上一步跳了下来。亚芸和蛋开始穿裤子,而我根本没有想过要跑。我喊大家把枕头扯下来,我自己把铺盖都扯下来裹在身上,头顶一个枕头,站在床下面,随着房子一起摇晃。我心里,这房子多半要垮了,但是我没有想过我可能死。我的想法是,我的柜子里有一箱牛奶,几个水果,许多巧克力,肯定可以助我在废墟里面多活几天。
       这时外面有人喊“快跑!”感觉摇晃要轻微些了,我敏捷地抓起裤子就穿上,并且拿起了书包,冲下楼去。楼下已经站满了人,原来我们都是最后一批下来的人了!!!大地仍然在震动,寝室大楼不时落下碎屑,大家都惊恐地看着楼房。不停有人在说,成都怎么会地震啊!!!不是天府之国吗?
       我也曾觉得地震离我好远。虽然在答地理的时候我们总是熟练的写“位于××板块与××板块交界处,地质活动频繁。地壳断裂能量以地震波的形式传播,发生地震”,不过这真是第一次晓得这世界上地震原来是这么一回事。
       电话很难打通了。当知道震中是汶川的时候,我们都为园子捏了一把汗。但是幸运的是当天下午她接到了爸爸的电话,虽然一接通就断掉了,不过好歹是有了点着落了。而我在千辛万苦打通妈妈电话时,——“妈,地震了!!”“我们也地震啦!”“你在干什么?”“我在打麻将哈。”“……”“现在没震了嘛,我们就回来打麻将了!”“……”——妈妈不愧是典型的四川人!
       后面的日子就是逃难的日子。看电视里面的惨境让我坐立不安;回了家直到学校只有我一个人没有回去才慢悠悠地回学校上课;妈妈请假过来陪我,一起去睡帐篷;预报说有强余震,于是万人空巷去避震;坐在教师里面余震了,就交头接耳;然后就迷迷糊糊地走上了高考场,仍然在担心我的这条小命……
       地震的影响是多方面的。我这个would be NO.1 也在变态高考题的摧残下整成了113的可怕名次!!差点与我以前觉得怎么考都考得上的北大失之交臂!!虽然一切都象一个不怎么舒服的梦,不过它毕竟发生了。
        刚得到成绩的时候,我回想起高三一年的辉煌成绩和最后这个下场,我懂得了一个道理:世界上就是有些倒霉事得发生,当它发生在你身上的时候,不要问为什么;正如地震中不幸遇难的人们,不幸致残的人们,又有谁会给他们一个为什么的答案呢?
        我不想说那是命运,这似乎有点消极。这也许是自然界的规律,在人类这个大群体中,有人承受了幸福,就得有人承受磨难;有快乐,就有悲伤;有新生,就有死亡……这是人的个体的渺小,也是人的群体的伟大。而作为个人,或许有时候,既然无法逃避,就只能选择坦然的接受了。
           
REFRAIN  AND REFIND MYSELF!
        In the blank of an eye,my senior life is gone.
        That day,when YUKI told me that our teachers were very sad at our results,I suddenly found that i have the very responsibility to go back to our school and just say something to them.
        And i suddenly realised that the result of the exam can really change one's state of miand__I   NO   LONGER   FIRMLY   BELIEVE   IN  MYSELF   NOW!  This discovery shocked me!I had always been a very confident person,believing I am the best !This belief had never changed in the past 3 years,but it changed just because of the result of an exam!
         I said I would stick to my goal,but my confidence changed even without notice!
        SO  I  WILL  reTURN TO MYSELF FROM NOW ON! I AM THE BEST ,just as in the past 3 years!In senior 3,i was the hope of many people,i was believed to be achieve the final goal!And i firmly believe that, those people's wish never changed and will never change!
         Mr SOONG sent me a short message:"We are not regret.We just feel depressed.You should believe in yourself.YOU ARE ALWAYS OUR MVP.Fighting!"
         With tears,I found the deep love they had for me .I swear i won't disappoint you again.
         Remembering MR SOONG told me a story of MAOZEDONG and ZHOUENLAI.In course of the revolution,ZHOU had many times had the chance to take the place of MAO to be the NO.1 in CPC,but ZHOU never did so.He believed that there were something very brilliant in MAO,which  decided that MAO was the very person to lead the revolution of CHINA.That is to say,the real leader had something which can never be imitated,which makes the difference.
         FIGHING!KEEP GOING!I won't fail again!
         I AM STILL THE NO.1!




 
Clarissa @ 2008-07-01 18:54

一个尴尬的分数带来又一个难题:上北大就进不了好的专业,上复旦好的专业但名气又稍逊。。。
其实我一路上都是奔北大而去的。所以进不了北大会十分遗憾。。。
不过一个好的专业对人的职业生涯有很大的帮助。。。
哎,要是高20分就好了!
(——"白日做梦!"
这次大家选择学校跟专业都很困难,祝大家好运吧!



 
Clarissa @ 2008-06-26 23:24

    为了让关心我的人了解我的情况,我在此报告:650。语文117,数学150,英语148,文综235。
    其实,我很好。这个成绩和我估计的一模一样。在有一点点错愕中,听到了这个意料之中的分数。幸好,在这个这么密集的分数中,我还有20分的加分。所以,大家放心吧。
    遗憾是肯定的。但是遗憾总有一天是可以平复的。其实,这样的结果也是可预见的风险后果。也没有完全考差嘛。还是值得庆幸的。
   Waiting ^……^看最后的分数段情况咯。
    今夜,可以睡个好觉了。
   


 
 
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